As rocky as 2013 started, I had no idea just how crazy life would get! Even as things were becoming very clear my dad’s lifestyle demanded a dramatic change, I was finding myself thanking God for the multiple hospital visits throughout 2012. As difficult as those times were, God eased me into accepting the New Norm for my dad – the roles were shifting – his sense of independence waning as he fought changes with all his might – his identity was completely wrapped up who he believed he should be – along with the unrealistic expectations he placed on himself….and any deviation triggered tailspins of Looney Tunes Tazmanian devil (if you’re younger than oh…say 45, you might want to google the reference!) proportions.
I was thankful, because in the year prior, I not only made a point to become more informed about my dad’s medications, bills, etc. (stuff that’s so easy to overlook ), I was given the gift of time to get to know my dad as an adult – a person outside of my bubble. There was a big part of me that didn’t want to accept the change either…not because becoming a caregiver wasn’t my cup of tea…because he was my dad…the strong, independent, pain in the rear guy who loved to help other people in his community.
Today…as I’m still learning to Embrace a New Norm, I can’t help but think about a few Tazmanian monster moments of my own….
Another day filled with unexpected moments…and God met us in every single one! My response is what Beth Moore describes as a “holy habit” – here’s an excerpt from her Daniel study to explain:
Imagine of being guilty of prayer. This was Daniel’s ‘holy habit.’
There are 3 ways you can respond to an emergency. Each of us knows what it’s like to receive a phone call, an email. Life changes and we are thrown in a completely urgent situation. One hour before everything was okay. How do you react in a middle of an emergency? You must be ready in advance.
1. We can panic. 2. We can become paralyzed. 3. We can pray.
What happens when we panic? When we panic we do the wrong thing. It the nature of panic.
What happens when we get paralyzed? We do nothing.
What happens when we pray? We do the power thing! In a crisis you can do one of three things. Heaven moves when we hit our knees and we pray. God is all about relationship and thru prayer he forces the issue of relationship and we cry out to Him for help.
Holy habits vs. old patterns. God can change our patterns. What if we began to react in the spirit vs. the old patterns? Daniel reacted in the Spirit, making petitions to God.
I’ll be honest, my holy habits still require LOTS of practice, but that’s point – habits take work!
It’s funny (odd) that almost three years later and the events of 2013 are still so clear – the great thing is that the memories don’t sting like they did before…another blessing and benefit of faith-based counseling!
Hopefully it won’t take 12 days to write through 2013, but January/February certainly set the tone…even if I didn’t have a clue at the time! I remember a member of senior management asking me if I really needed to be at the hospital with my daughter (she was there two weeks) – yes she was an adult, but honestly it didn’t matter what the age – I’m a firm believer every patient deserves to have their advocate present…and what better advocate than mama?
Yes…it’s actually day 4 and I’m just now posting day 3! Nonetheless…here we are…still discovering a New Norm…since it’s almost 11PM I leave the writing as is..no extras…especially since I still need to write today! As promised, I will start sharing details of 2013 events to help you see/understand the ways God grew me in preparation for this current battle called cancer….more importantly, to show you how God continually met me on the battlefield of life so I could praise Him with confidence!
One thing is for certain…handwriting 2 pages isn’t enough room to fill in all the blanks! But that’s okay… something tells me I should avoid the Reader’s Digest version anyway. I need to share the uglies of life… ’cause I’m pretty sure God showing up in my messy life isn’t really all that different from how He’s eager to show up & show off in yours. I like focusing on today – today isn’t all that painful – today I’ve let go of a lot of things – today the idea of the unknown isn’t oh so scary – today it’s easy to praise Him.
The challenge in this journey of faith is praising God when we’re knee deep in the muck of life – and that’s only possible if we’re willing to stand firm on His promises – when we’re willing to call on Him – cry out to Him to see us through – when we set pride aside and allow others to walk beside us in the dark hours of unknowns…
And that folks is what I call relationship – that degree of intimacy only achieved by spending one-on-one time with Him. The great thing is that God is so….so God that He gives us ALL of Him….ALL the time: 100% of His love – 100% of the time – how grand is that?!
So tomorrow and in the coming days, I will focus more on the so-called uglies (you can also check out a couple of recent posts shown below) so you can see more clearly how He loves to show up for us.
It’s a WIN-WIN-WIN Situation Part 1 / Part 2 (click on part 1 or 2)
P.S. If there’s anything in particular you’d like me to clarify, just ask – I’m pretty much an open book!
I went back and forth about publishing vs keeping the initial 31day writing revelations private & sharing later. And then I slept on it and decided to publish as I go…the raw unfiltered journaling coversations with God…
So….instead of re-writing I’m going to post images each day from my journaling – hopefully you can read my handwriting! I’ll make a better effort not to scribble ☺️
A few days ago I heard about #write31days – at the last minute I surrendered to the idea of doing something I’ve never done before…consistently write. As I browsed around for more info, it seems folks tend to write on one topic…or at least that’s where I landed! As I was saying, “Lord, lead me on this journey…” I heard the whispers He’s been persistently putting on my heart this past year “Embrace a New Norm”…
so here we go! Follow the journey to living a wonderful life with cancer – it’s #GodGloryTime!