five years….FIVE years….60 months….260 weeks…1,820 days ago….I heard the words no one wants to hear…. “Ms Carr, You have cancer and it’s stage IV”
honestly, that feels like a lifetime ago and yet sometimes it’s at the forefront of my attention….
those close to me have heard me say more than once how cancer has been a blessing… crazy, right? how can there be ANYTHING good about cancer??????
oh, but there is! I am a living testimony that God will truly take every single situation…even the really sucky situations….use it all for good and I’m blessed to be a witness to His goodness.
don’t get me wrong, if I’d had a choice, I doubt I would’ve said, “sure! I’ll take on cancer!” but the choice wasn’t mine and here’s just some of the good:
- I am confident God will deliver me!
- grow my relationship with God deeper than I ever could’ve imagined
- the medical community has advanced to target and treat my specific cancer
- retired at age 55 vs 65 or 70
- discovered a love for faith art and grew to share it with others
- be available to take regular trips to see ‘my girl’ and extended family
- write and share a Bible study
yeah….so I’m an optimist….I choose not to focus on the hard parts of cancer… and that’s not always heathy or easy… I also discovered its a huge part of being authentic…. it’s just as important to share the hard parts…
- cancer is hard – really hard
- cancer is painful….almost every.single.day.
- cancer causes physical limitations you never dreamed of
- cancer is relentless and certainly doesn’t care about your hopes and dreams
- cancer is just.plain.mean
- God provides a WAY when there seems no way!
- God provides PEACE in a seemingly never ending storm…..
- God provides COMFORT when the pain feels unbearable
- God provides WISDOM and DISCERNMENT when you’re on information overload
- God provides STRENGTH …spiritual – emotional – physical when you are tapped out
- God provides HOPE and assurance of VICTORY that He will deliver me
bottom line? there are no guarantees in life…except one…to know and accept the salvation offered by my loving unchanging LORD and Savior 💖
God’s timing is always perfect! While I may have originally thought I would attend the 2012 She Speaks Conference, I wasn’t ready…I just love how God works!
Look at this note from late 2011:
When you were a little (or big!) girl and went swimming, were you the type to run full force off the diving board? Or were you perhaps the trepidacious type like me…taking a few steps forward only to retreat again?
That’s EXACTLY what I’ve been doing the past few months with God! I’ve known since last summer I was on a launch pad – He gave me The Love Dare with God to share with others and yet I’m still keeping it to myself.
The thing is…I can still recall the exhiliaration as a little girl when I finally “jumped” off the diving board into the water…
2012 is going to be a HUGE year and I’m excited to see what diving into Living Water feels like! Continue reading
I must admit, wound care isn’t a topic I typically delve into, but bear with me…as with all things, God provides revelation in the simplest of things…
A couple of weeks ago I had the opportunity to be educated on how the body attempts to heal open wounds. Far from an expert on the subject, here’s my takeaway…with an open wound the body’s goal is to protect itself. To bridge the gap of exposed tissue, new tissue forms – a scab…we’ve all had them…and all probably felt the temptation to pick at them…a healing wound is uncomfortable…it itches…it’s tender, Continue reading
This morning I woke up to the words “Paid in Full” pressing on my heart…later my mind pulled on a memory of how I always enjoy driving through Starbucks – especially when given the opportunity to bless an unsuspecting driver behind me by paying for their coffee…
Can you imagine the surprise when the cashier says, “you’re paid in full”? – they did nothing to “earn” it, nothing to “deserve” it…
Hardly the price of a coffee, yet still unearned, still undeserving…the ultimate price was paid for us through God’s immeasurable love on the cross – HALLELUJAH we are PAID IN FULL!!!!!
Last month I was visiting friends at their property in the country. I’d been several times before, so I’d developed a sense of the layout. I’d been on several walks, but never on my own. My friends were working on a project where I was of no particular use, so I decided a walk through the woods would be nice before I set out on my way back to Houston.
There were numerous managed (i.e. mowed) trails to choose from – I chose the one I thought would take the longest – off I went with Buddy (their dog) leading the way!
In no time at all, we came to the end of the mowed path…the path ahead was still there…it just wasn’t clearly marked. Buddy appeared confident in the direction we were headed and so I followed. Continue reading
Social media seems to be the networking norm these days…I frequently receive emails asking “Do you know…” followed by a list of individuals. Most often I know the name, an acquaintance at best. This morning LinkedIn, a professional networking site, came to mind and something clicked…
On LinkedIn, people in your network are called connections and your network is made up of varying degrees of connection:
1st-degree – People you’re directly connected to because you have accepted their invitation to connect, or they have accepted your invitation.
2nd-degree – People who are connected to your 1st-degree connections. You can connect at a 1st degree level by receiving and accepting an invitation
3rd-degree – People who are connected to your 2nd-degree connections.
Now to the clicked part… Continue reading
A couple of weeks ago, my employer began construction in our workspace. As a result, a bank of elevators which directly accessed our floor from the parking garage were no longer available. Instead, employees now use the main garage elevators.
At first I thought, “well geez, this certainly is inconvenient” – I soon discovered God’s purpose for re-routing us (me!) – I now have the opportunity to witness more frequently! Granted, the witnessing may come in the form of a smile, a “good morning!” or simply holding the door, but they are witnessing opportunities all the same.
One morning as I approached the elevator, I greeted a woman with a “Good Morning!” and a smile. Once we entered the elevator she said something along the lines of “It is so nice to see a friendly face! – Often I get on the elevator with women and they look as if they are ready to bite someone’s head off! They are angry about traffic or time or something else!”
Wow…what a timely reminder to step out of myself for a moment and engage others with the love of Christ! Continue reading
Dessert First – Fill up on His Word!
Ever find yourself in those times when your plate has become so full it seems you’ve pushed God off the plate completely? I have found myself in that predicament far too often! How about a different approach? How about dessert first?
The thing is, when I put my relationship with God on the plate of life with everything else – I don’t really PUSH Him off to the side….I scooch Him off inch by precious inch – that slow fade effect Casting Crowns sings about. And here’s what happens:
I find myself awake in the wee hours of the morning; thinking of the many things on the “TO DO” List! Job responsibilities: unrealistic deadlines, short-staffed, you name it….. add in financial obligations: auto repairs, home repairs, a multitude of unexpected expenses…out of town guests: a blessing for certain, yet stressful…family illnesses…the list goes on and on… Continue reading