As I mentioned, last Fall when I first used AdvoCare products I probably chose the most challenging time from a work perspective. I knew if the initial go-round was easy, the second one would be a snap! The thing is, it’s highly improbable to find a time more “perfect” than today. There will always be obstacles of one sort or another – the key? Seek God’s guidance and START!
The week following my initial 24-day Challenge brought about challenges on a completely different level. I wasn’t on firm footing and my personal health priorities evaporated as quickly as I attempted to establish them.
2013 was fraught with family health issues – from an adult child to an aging parent. I was so intently focused on meeting the needs of others, I completely forfeited my needs – both spiritual and physical. Anyone who has walked the same path knows where I was headed. I came up for breath long enough to recognize I needed to reprioritize, but once again my 2-year old “I can do it myself” attitude was setting me up for one heck of a fall!
And fall I did – overwhelmed with work demands while attempting to meet needs and absorb realities associated with a terminally ill parent far exceeded my personal capabilities. I was empty and spinning attempting to regain control – the thing is, God was so sweetly showing me I wasn’t the one in control. Thankfully, repeated falls in a very short period of time finally brought me to my knees long enough to listen.
When my daughter first introduced me to AdvoCare products, she kept saying, “You should consider becoming a distributor” – I wanted no part of it. I was eager to share products with co-workers and help build her business, yet I couldn’t conceive taking on one more thing to manage.
As God was diligently working to show me how mis-prioritized my life had become (including seeking approval in ALL the wrong places), I was faced with the inevitable choice: surrender the current mess of my life I’d created or keep digging the messy hole. I knew I had to let go of my work situation, but I didn’t want to quit.
Read that word again…quit. Why on earth was I equating letting go with quitting?
Ask the 2-year old. Yes – stubborn 2-year old thinking. As long as I was attempting to retain control, letting go was impossible. Exhausted, I surrendered. The answers (yes, more than one) were clear – difficult if I was leaning on my own understanding, but clear. Letting go of messes aren’t the end – they’re a beginning. It isn’t quitting at all – it’s moving forward!
What does letting go look like? In this particular situation. it meant leaving my job and perceived security of almost 9 years. It meant recognizing my work ethic, while strong, was rooted in seeking affirmation from others. Although I know my worth is in Christ, apparently I haven’t been 100% convinced and unbelief still exists. God is so gracious and merciful to grow and refine me!
Likewise, it meant diligently seeking God to help identify the difference between wants and needs. At the beginning of the year, I was half-heartedly seeking His guidance – my palms were clinched tight attempting to hold on to perceived security. As I began to freely open the future to Him, extraordinary things began to happen…an indescribable peace!
As I reminded myself God – not the company I received a paycheck from – is my Provider and that He ALWAYS meets my every need, the unbearable work situation was suddenly bearable! Not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, I gave patience a solid workout until He said “Go” In the weeks leading to my departure, I often found myself asking God, “What are my needs?” The resounding answer was “Flexibility”
Great…. the answer was flexibility, but what does that look like? Back on my knees I went. Clear as day (well 3AM to be exact), AdvoCare popped into my head. Yes, the same business opportunity presented months before that I was so certain “wasn’t for me” – at all! Gee…perhaps I should have asked God about that!
So here I am…re-prioritizing Celeta – and as I mentioned before…God is my Project Manager. I cannot see the future, but I know the One who holds it in the palms of His hands – and what great and mighty hands they are!
Isaiah 43:18-19 are definitely my verses for 2014…