Do you or anyone you know suffer from motion sickness? It’s awful, right? It’s described as a condition in which a disagreement exists between visually perceived movement and the vestibular system’s sense of movement. In other words, you’re out of balance – the physical manifestation can be nausea, headache, dizziness…complete inner discord. However, when the focus shifts, the symptoms seem to subside…but the direction in which we shift our focus defines if we find true relief…true balance
Is my spiritual walk really any different? If I stop and think about it…when I attempt to give up control…it’s as if everything in my being fights it…the inner struggle can feel overwhelming…I want to give up control, but a sense of control is all I’ve known…and for whatever reason, successes experienced along the way support the misconstrued mindset that as long as I’m in control there is a sense of balance.
I’m reminded of a video I saw a year or so ago…there was a stool, which represented the driver’s seat of my life…the thing is, there’s only room for one to sit on the stool – it’s my choice…do I take the driver’s seat? Or do I let God? I may say, “Oh Lord, I give you control – You know what’s best for my life” but as soon as struggle enters the picture, I push Him off the stool. And so the motion sickness of my soul ensues…a disagreement between my perceived direction and where His spirit is leading me.
You may be asking yourself, “But what does that picture really look like? How do I (a) notice it in my life and (b) change my actions?”
Don’t scream, but it’s not as difficult as we (that would be me!) tend to make it. I’m a pro when it comes to making simple things complicated! For me, the key is to recognize the behavior of relying on myself versus God – when my tendency to ‘grab the steering wheel’ takes over – sometimes I see it glaring like a flashing neon sign, while at other times…well I find myself knee deep in the muck before I have the ah ha! moment.
So how to recognize the behavior? It starts with the amount of time I’m spending with God. I have found the more my focus is on Him and His Word, the lower probablity there is of me charging full steam ahead in any given situation. Another way is to pay attention to what’s going on in my gut – my spirit. We ALL sense it – but we don’t always pay attention to it – often it’s when I really want something to happen and get impatient with God’s timing that I find myself pushing Him aside. So I try and check myself by asking the simple question, “Whose will is this? Mine? Or God’s?” Chances are, if the result is about me, the answer is “mine”
“But mine eyes are unto thee, O GOD the Lord: in thee is my trust; leave not my soul destitute.” Psalm 141:8
What restores balance is a change in focus – it’s not about regaining a sense of control – quite the contrary – it’s about taking my hands off the wheel, moving aside, and relaxing in His arms – not just believing, but trusting He knows exactly where I’m going and how to get there.